35 : Pangaea

One word to describe it. Spectacular. We had such a great time. Everyone worked their very best and gave it all to bring the name "Malaysia" to the world. I'm so proud and blessed to enjoy it with each and every single one of you. I never really wanted a traditional wedding (for my wedding, hopefully one day), but the beating of kompang, the silat, and the zapin, which we performed made me think twice. Anyhow, I am so proud to be a Malaysian, which is rich in cultures. I'll upload pictures or videos later because i'm so screwed for my test tomorrow (I just started studying like 5mins ago). But I have to tell you I adore the make up (Thanks K. Betty!) because it wasn't over the top yet still managed to make me look good (well it won't look great because I'm the one wearing it, sorry).


Malaysia Boleh! I heart everyone in MyMac! especially R

CherryBee xx

34 : Polarized

Everytime seeing him, my heart beats faster. I got nervous. Scared at the same time. Suddenly the images of the past begin to re-appear and they won't go away. The feeling got stronger, the jealousy starts to show when something is bothering me. How did that happen. I thought I could overcome the feeling, but I guess I can't no matter how hard I try to. But the question is, what about him. What is going through his mind. Is it the same thing, or is it a complete 180 degree. I don't know what the future is for me, but I know to follow my heart and do what I believe is the right thing to do; go for it. I made the mistake once, now I have to fight and defend.

CherryBee

33 : Metamorphosis

Have you guys ever watched this cartoon called "Akazukin Chacha"? I used to love watching it especially the part when she changes to this Magical Princess. Yes, I've found it on youtube! I'm gonna start watching it again.

Anyhow I haven't been updating lately because of many reasons and probably when I'm ready I will start sharing everything here. But for now I'm happy. Why? Because everything that needs to be said are told, and everything that needs to be done have been done. I'm sorry if I've said or done anything wrong to you guys. I love and care for each and everyone of you here. I know you guys care and think for the best of me, and so I am very thankful. Thank you all.

I was scared thinking that this person won't like me anymore after this, but I believe we just have to do our best. And it may seem that the odds are against it, but it won't hurt to try and give it your best.

I couldn't find the part when they say "With love, courage, and hope". However I'm sure you will like it too once seeing the opening trailer, I hope. Go go Akazukin Chacha! xx




CherryBee xx

32 : Affrmative

I've been travelling on this road too long.
Just trying to find my way back home.
And the old me is dead and gone.
Dead and gone.

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it.
I don't believe it makes me real.
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me.
I meant all the things I said.

Where are you, and I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always.
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime.
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight.
Stop this pain tonight. I miss you, miss you.

The littlest things that take me there.
I know it sounds lame but it's so true.
I know it's not right but it seems unfair.
The things remind me of you.

Waking up I see that everything is okay.
The first time in my life and now it's so great.
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed.
I think about the little things that make life great.

The radio reminds me of my home far away.
And driving down the road I get the feeling
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday.

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed.
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid.
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
When you look outside look inside to your soul.

I wish you were here.
Before it's too late this could all disappear.
Before the door's closed and it comes to an end.
With you by my side I will fight and defend.
Keep holding on, cause you know we'll make it through.
Just stay strong, cause you know I'm here for you.

CherryBee

31 : Cascade

Friday is one of the best days of the week. Although my class starts at 8.30am and finishes at 5.30am, nevertheless I'm always looking forward for Fridays. This week has been very busy for me. Average sleeping time : 3.5 - 4 hours a day. But putting all the work at the side,I must say I've been feeling so happy this week. Lots of things have been hapening that made me smile even when I'm sitting alone in my room. Haha.

Anyhow, I had a good lab this week despite having to wait 20minutes for my lab partner. I got lots of candies that day. N gave me m&m's and my TA gave me lollipop and sweets! My lab TA is an amazingly nice person. He always tries to help me and make the lab so much fun. Thanks E!

Yesterday I was talking to my sis and she said she got herself a new Blackberry phone! Omg envy alert. I want a new phone too but not Blackberry though. The phone will make me look like a working person a.k.a old. So we talked for like 1 hour or so about stuff, some gossip update, etc, but then had to cut it off because I had to go out. Sorry, but we'll catch up more later alright! :)

Gosh I've developed a flu yesterday. And when I'm not well I'm always tired. I slept for nearly 10hours and now I'm still sleepy. I gotta plan out my reading week so that it will be used to its full benefits; enjoying and studying at the same time. Oh Happy Chinese New Year! Dragon dance, or is it Lion dance? Oh well. :P

CherryBee xx

30 : Shear

Lol, I wanna meet this Kevin guy who suggested this at our common place market. Salute the silly-ness. I went to grab breakfast after Thermodynamics test and saw this note. Speaking of the test, that night I only had 3hours of sleep and I admit I didn't study enough for it. I stopped in the middle of this chapter and watched Dexter. :P But yeah the test was alright I think, so thank god and I'm happy about it.

Right after our circuits 2E04 class, we went to the mall and shop! Honestly we were so tired and thinking of going back home to sleep. But come on, we have reading week to do that. We've been having such a TIRING week and screw it, let's go shopping. Haha. I didn't plan to buy any but of course I got myself a few stuff. I would post pictures but nah, it won't be exciting anymore. Oh I got flat shoes! I know people will go like "so?" but this is my first time buying them and I'm so excited! Plus I love Them!

That night I was so busy managing everyone because we're heading out. I was texting 5-6 people at the same time while making sure the others who got there early have companies. I was like "Grrr" so badly but hey it was worth it. We had such a blast! Love you people a lot. :)

And did I mention that every single person who came up to me would have guessed I'm from Philippine. Like seriously people, do I even look like one? I guess Malaysia is not a famous answer over here. When I asked them why Philippine, one of them answered "After all, that's where all the cute Asians are from". I know I shouldn't mention this but why not eh. Lols. :P Just for fun, now don't be going like "Omg she's so full of herself". :S haha

Now I'm gonna get something to eat because I'm hungry! xx Hamiltonians

CherryBee

29 : Spectra

Yesterday I had my Quantum Mechanics test and it was quite brutal I'd say. I guess next time we really need to memorize all those long complicated equations and derive them over and over again. But oh well, we'll see how it goes. Now I have to start studying Thermodynamics for tomorrow. I know, studying a day before a test is never a good sign, but I'll do my best to use every single minute of the day. Not to mention the test is at 8.30am! English Toffee, Save Me!

Just a thought, can dead people really communicate with the livings? How valid is this theory? From what I know, once your soul leaves your body, you will no longer have any connection with the livings. But what about all those things that had happened in this world. Because I also heard that they can visit you in your dreams, give you signs and so on. Somehow I really wish to know deeply about this matter. I'm not superstitious though, that one I am sure of.

Anyhow, tomorrow right after the test (and classes), I'm planning of going out with F either to shop (YAY) or to buy lots of fruits at farmer's market. And that night I finally get to be beautiful ( I hope :P ) again after nearly 1 and a half months. I miss getting up early and actually have time to get yourself ready before going to school, and browse through my closet to pick an outfit for the day. Trust me, being in engineering (specifically physics) programme is so worth it, but you rarely get to be a true "girl". Most of the time I'll have laptop on my hand and coffee on the other. Sleep at around 2am doing assignments or studying, and wake up at 8am the latest. 95% of the time I would wake up and have this "Damn I'm LATE!" expression on my face. Not to mention I RARELY get to properly dry my hair. :(

So with this, I'm vowing to use significantly my reading week and make up for the lost "girlie" time! I'm starting on my to-do list for this coming week and boy I'm so excited. Gonna start on my new personal style and finally get a haircut after 3months. I can't wait! 2 more days guys. Keep that spirit alive because you know we gonna rock hamilton this coming week! xx To all those of you out there who are hungry for love, spread some of yours by donating to Haiti charity foundation alright. God Bless Ya.

CherryBee xx

28 : Lieya's Sweet 21!

LIEYA DARLING! You're 21 today!!! Happy Birthday Babe!

I'm sorry I can't be there on your birthday but I know you're enjoying your birthday party with your boyfriend and the other gurls! Arghh How I wish I could join you guys.

When I come back home, we're gonna bake like there's no tomorrow and you owe me a set of "Spongebob Squarepants" cupcake theme. Nyummyy I can't wait :99 And we're so gonna go shopping and just waste our time hanging out around KL, after all that's what we do best. Haha. Oh and don't forget the slumber party!

Chocolate fountain, swimming pool, gossip-ing, and watching late night movies. :)

Mishh yaa babe!! I wish nothing but happiness for you and I know you'll do well in life. God Bless You Lee~ Muahxoxo

CherryBee xx

Ardie

Ardie, I don't know how to post this video on your fb wall, so I am posting it here. So K told me the version is 3.1.2 (3GS) , 16 gb and that it has been fully unlocked so you can put in your Malaysian simcard in there. The phone is 1month and 10days old, and the warranty is until December 2010. I'm gonna have a look at it this Friday perhaps, or as soon as possible and will keep you updated. He says I can make sure that you don't need to jailbreak it everytime you restart the phone. It's around rM1700 ~ $520. If you really wish to have it, tell me quick because he says "Iphones sell like hot cakes." Nyummy :9 Mish ya Babe. Take care! xx

CherryBee xx

28 : Latte

So apparently today didn't really go as planned. I spent most of the time cooking and baking cupcakes. Didn't have time to decorate though. I have so many plans for the upcoming reading week, I wanna bake so many stuff and shop lots of pinky clothes!

I finally headed to library at around 4.30pm, which was quite late so I didn't really have that much time to study. But hey better than nothing right? This morning I joined online "usrah" led by my ex-housemate, Tiqa and it was very helpful. The topic is about how people say they're muslims but they don't actually perform anything that says they're muslims such as pray, fast, reading the holy Quran and many more. I do admit that we need to be constantly reminded about this matter, even myself. Humans are forgetful, and we need to always seek help from God so that we will see the light and not be left in the darkness. I have to say that I am not a good person myself, I've done lots of sins and I'm not proud of it. But remember that God is merciful and He will never shut the door to those who wish to repent.

There is this one line in Surah Al Nasr where it says "So glorify the Praises of your Lord, and ask for His forgiveness. Verily, He is the One Who accepts the repentance and forgives". Therefore, please do always think of God and ask for His forgiveness. This is a reminder for me, as I am myself not perfect.

Oh another thing, I saw this contemporary dance and it is so beautiful! It really touches my heart on how the message is conveyed. The story behind this dance is about a girl facing her "fear". Her fear in this video is the guy, and no matter how hard she tries to run away from the "fear", he always seems to haunt her. But if you do watch the video, please watch until the end where she finally conquers her fear. Whatever your fear might be, know that you need to face it instead of running away from it. It is you who will fight and win the battle against your fear. I might gonna switch from Britney and Beyonce to this type of dance (but it seems so hard!).

CherryBee xx

27 : Quantized Atoms

I loveee today! The weather is so nice~ I had such a blast for the past few days and my sufferings will be done for the next 1 week! yay.

We went groceries shopping just now and oh boy I like it. I got my baking stuff and a lot of magazines. Tonight I can read them with a bowl of frozen yogurt on the side. Oh gosh, totally heaven on earth. :D

Tomorrow I will wake up early (hopefully) and study the whole day for the upcoming tests. Go go Beena you can do it! xx

I seriously feel like I was rebirth into this world and it feels awesome! Can't wait for this Thursday. This is so a good enough reason to go shopping. Furthermore R said I can wear cheongsam for the cultural event since A might not be able to come on that day. Or I can also help in performing a dance. Either way, I'm superly excited!

Wishing everyone a joyful weekend! Remember what Dexter said, "You might get away from the hand of the law, but you can't get away from me, I will find you." Haha that is a random one but that's all I can think of right now. Merry Saturday lovahs.

CherryBee xx

26 : Dear John

Dear John, you've made me cry tonight. But at the same time you've made me a different person, the person who I used to be before. And that is to believe in the word "love" again. Not to mention to have faith that not all men are the same, where there exists such love between a man and a woman. Yes I cried, and it is because I see your pain, I feel your suffering..

But I smiled too, because your heart is pure, your love is divine, your faith is strong, and your patience is remarkable. The word time is always mentioned by people. I used to believe in time, but the thing with time is, that no matter how long you have it, whether it is 2months of knowing you throughout the summer, or 2weeks of being with you to say goodbye, time will eventually run out.

Before going to bed to actually face a better day tomorrow of sunlight, I will put on a smile of satisfaction and happiness knowing that "happy ending" might do still exist in this mixed up world. Goodnight.

CherryBee xx

25 : Grotesque

Rise and shine~

Someone said "I hate what you've become". Newsflash, you made me like this. I wasn't like this before. Yeah it's so easy for you to just say it as if I'm a robot where you can just change the programming code. And whatever this "I've become", it certainly shows infront of some people only.

N said to me "Sabrina, it's not worth it to change yourself because of someone. You never hated anyone in your life, not even "him". This is the first time I'm seeing you hate someone so much and I'm telling you it's not worth it because I know you. Let her do what she wants, you have a mission here and I know you'll turn up great."

Hm.. You're right. I never in my life hated anyone, never even once. I don't believe in hating or fighting, but this time it's different. And if I really hate this person anyway, I shouldn't let the person change me. But seriously what can I do about it. I do believe though that when you're betrayed, God will listen to your prayers. It is said and proven.

I asked only one question to him, but up until now the only answer I'm getting is somewhat like "You're just assuming", "I'm not happy or sad", "No I am not with her". But why am I seeing it differently, or perhaps the other person is the one trying. Hah, whatever. Seriously, how long will this continue. How long do I have to cry, not to mention every single effing day. I just wish that .........



CherryBee

24 : Fine 99

I'm sometimes confuse with the sentence "It's for the best". What does that mean? The way I see it though, if it benefits only one party then it should be "It's best for me, not you". But I guess it's alright. Lala~

Yesterday I slept for 4hours only finishing the assignment which I am 100% confident that it is shitty, plus was studying for math test as well. Thank god the Math was alright so I don't feel that horrible about myself. Next up, Quantum and Thermodynamics tests. But for now, I'm gonna let myself have enough sleep first before I can do anything else.

Girls' night out was so fun. I had tons of fun with them all. Thank you for brighten up my night and Happy 20th Birthday Laila! You deserve it since you've been going through a week of hella good. Lol.

I'm so sleepy right now and the last thing I wanna do is reminiscing those sweet memories. Damn it. I wanna bake cupcakes tomorrow, predicting it will cheer me up. But I must say, we are forced to make decision every time and whatever we choose will have consequences, be it bad or good. Right now I wanna choose my future, and I will prove to everyone that I can do this. Some people might make the wrong decision but I guess only time will tell.

Life, what goes around comes around. What you give is what u get. As for now, I have my hangel always with me and I love that lil kitty. Goodnight all.

CherryBee

23 : Holler

Okay I missed another 2 classes today. But I do forgive myself for any missed class within these 2weeks interval of time though. I must say the burden seems so much less now that I have done submitted a lot of assignments.

Yesterday MATLAB assignment was hardcore! Our professor purposedly made it a hard one because he said people have been passing around the answers. I submitted the file at 11:59:36 pm! 24seconds before deadline, pheww. And today handed in the Quantum Mechanics assignment, which is like a total relief. Now I have to get this Nuclear assignment done (although I'm like so far away from finishing it) and sit for my Math test this thursday. Gosh time is ticking!! I'm so gonna stay up for 3 days straight.

That night I was talking to this one person, and he was telling me that he's trying to generate money as much as possible. I must say he has very good strategy in marketing as he already earned profits of $360 within like 2-3weeks. Now that's impressive! He mentioned he wanted to buy a BMW X5 series with his own money. I wasn't really surprised because he knows business well, he's doing engineering, and he's smart. Which basically equals to lots of $$$. Haha. My dad had BMW X5 when he was in his forties and now people in their twenties are talking about owning them. I wanna work hard and get one just like my dad's!

Oh today I'm gonna give Hangel his bath and spray my Ed Hardy perfume on him. He's gonna smell naish~ And lots and lots and lots of Britney's songs on the side to keep me energetic for studying too! Thode's Library tonight anyone? Holler!

Missing summer and my ferosh gurls xx

CherryBee

22 : Cherish

If you were told by someone, whom you love, "I still love you".
What would you do.? I would believe every single thing that comes out from his mouth. I would say what my heart has been shutting all this while, I would say that I love you.

If you were told by someone, whom you love, "I will give it back when we meet again".
What would you say.? I would say time is just a medium in space that will eventually bring everyone together again. And so I will wait.

If you were told by someone, whom you love, "Happiness can be faked".
What would you see.? I would see through his heart and give the touch of love, so forever will that heart beat with a shine.

If you were told by someone, whom you love, "I miss you".
What would you feel.? I would feel that deep in you, I'm still there. And deep in me, you're always there. Only waiting for the right moment to finally be "together forever" again.


Happy February everyone. Yeah I can't write poems but just saying what I feel. I hope you're doing fine and remember don't be naughty. Because I know I won't.

CherryBee

21 : Sanctuary

Life is beautiful

We love until we die

When you run into my arms,
We steal a perfect moment,
Let the monsters see you smile,
Let them see you smilling.

Do I hold you tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand.
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When will you run away from harm.
Will you run back into my arms.
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.


- I picture my dad, my mum, saying these words to me. Because they wouldn't want to see me getting hurted. Not in any way possible. They want me to see that life is beautiful, and when I'm feeling down, they're going to hold me tight and make me feel safe.

Abah, I let you down. I neglected the reason I was here in the first place, which is to study hard and make our family proud. I will not let anyone bring me down anymore. Because you taught me well the meaning of patience, the meaning of sacrifice, the meaning of hardships. I promise I will make you proud and I will take care of mak, kakak, and lukey. Mak, you said challenges in life are to make us better, not bitter. How I wish I were as strong as you. You make everything seem doable in life even when the impossible occurs. But I have your strong will inside of me. And I won't let it fade, instead I will make it shine.

I will make this right again, I will try my very best to focus on my studies. But I can't do this alone. God, please give me strength so that I can endeavor this bumpy road. It may seem that my problem is so small, but my heart is bruised. Let it heal, please.



CherryBee

20 : Those Words

Okay I lied, now I am going to sleep. I'm gonna hug my hangel and imagine happy thoughts while going to sleep. I'm gonna picture him coming to me, hug me, kiss me on the cheek, and wipe my tears. Then he'll say "Everything will be alright. Goodnight." Where are you dear. I need you badly right now but you're not here and you can't be here. I miss you where ever you are.

CherryBee