55 : Smoothie-mania

I love smoothies. Like seriously, I'm addicted to them. I gotta have it at least twice a week. But usually it will be 3 or 4. I mean it shoudn't be that bad considering it's all freshly blended fruits and I don't usually have other meal if I already had smoothie before. Why oh why do I love these kind of food. Because they're good! Duh.. Lol.

This Friday I gotta wake up early to bake. That's pretty hard. Haha. But either way, I'll get it done.

Oh I had a weird dream yesterday. It was so freakingly weird. I can't really remember in detail but something like this girl killed herself and was like haunting people. And I'm talking about an 8 or 9 year old girl. Then we were following this group of people by cars and got caught. A malay boy here was in that dream and he was telling to the other 3 gigantic guys to chase and hit me and my friends (whom I don't know). I was lucky to escape that, but then that little girl was haunting me everywhere. I got so annoyed I was like "omg go awayyy". Then suddenly I was jumping through people's fences and ended up in a house full of gays. Huh? I was like yay I'm safe because gay people are usually nice, but how the heck do I get out of here. Then my alarm woke me up. It was already 12pm. I got up and "Wow that was a nice dream, full of adventures". Okay time to bathe now. Lala~

Muahxoxo.

CherryBee xx

54 : That Day

Have you ever had that day where you feel like crying.
You can't find the true reason behind it but you just wanna cry.
I'm having that feeling now. I just can't find out why though.
It sucks because I'm gonna think about all the sad stuff while listening to very sad songs. Miserable at its best, What If, Meet Me Halfway, The Garden That You Planted, My Happy Ending, All I Have, You're Not Sorry, I miss You, and the list goes on and on.
I know I'll be a lot better when I wake up tomorrow because this is temporary, but eh I wish I can talk to someone now and just cry at the person. Weird eh. Goodnight.

CherryBee xx

53 : Obnoxious

If I could wish one thing for you, I'd wish you'll never change so that you'll be screwed forever. Stay away from my family. And you don't wanna know the reason why.

Was in the library for 5 hours until 11pm. What the heck. All of us ended up doing silly stuff but still managed to get work done. Hooray!

CherryBee xx

52 : Gaussian

I was thinking of a new way saying omg. Instead of oh my god, oh my gosh, and oh my gawd, let's for with oh my gauss! That sounds so way scientific. Agree? I bet so.

Last Friday was pretty exhausting. I slept for 5hours only because I had Thermo test at 8.30am. What sucks about the test was I know this one subchapter was gonna be in but i skipped it because it doesn't look that interesting compared to others. Bam! It's on the test and it's worth 15points = 30 %. Like what the eff? Great, hopefully my nonsense I wrote on the paper can get me some marks. After that I went home and finished my lab report. Then rushed to school for my quantum class and my final circuits lab.

So considering all the things I've been through that day, of course my mood wasn't as high as I normally have. My lab partner was pissing me off, so I got this whatever look on my face. My TA came to me and tried to make me feel better. He even emailed me that night to make sure I'm doing all better. I was like "Wow, he is a really nice guy". I don' have a big brother, but the malay boys here and some people like my TA show me how it feels to have big brothers who care for you.

That night we went to this Italian restaurant (I forgot the name of the place) for a farewell dinner to whoever is graduating soon and to celebrate Nita's new position as the club president. Congrats girl! The place was awesome posum! I felt like a spoilt rich girl eating at this fine restaurant that costs $30 for a salmon and a guy playing jazz music on the side. Lol. It was fun though. Thanks everyone for the night, need it after a day of school crap. Haha. After that, we went to this other place for cakes! Nyum. Oh my gauss, freaking amazing. I couldn't care less of the calories consumption that night, I've been craving for cakes. :)

I spent my Saturday doing my research and assignment and slept at 5am! Oh well at least I got it done early. I nearly cried when I'm done with it because I never finished any assignment as early as 11pm on a Sunday night. It is due Monday though. Lol.

Missing a few people and juniors who's having midterm this night :P

My awesomeness crazy girls; K.Lynn, Agnita, Yasmin and Farhanah.
Food!! Kent looked like a Korean drama star. Lol

"Badass" boys.

Like Seriously, Those are amazing especially the cherry cheesecake. Calories ALERT!

CherryBee xx

51 : Chipsmore

Now you see it, now you don't. Just like a chipsmore. But at the same time chipsmore is so good and you would do anything basically just to get a box of these cookies. Chipsmore alone is good enough, but if you combine it with a glass of milk, OMG it's so freaking good. Be a chipsmore, but don't disappear okay. Tee hee.

CherryBee xx

50 : Ambiguous

" .... And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind.
And we both cried. "

Happens not only when you're fifteen. Even when you're old enough to differentiate between true men and players. I heard this song for like 10 times today in the radio, so these lines keep on playing in my head. Some boys are such CALs. Oh well, let's continue doing my work now. Test on Monday, time to get serious Sabrina. Tee-hee.

Misses Ard, was talking to her just now. :( Take care babe. I heart you very much. XoXo

CherryBee xx

49 : You Make Me Wanna Lala

Oh hello, how long have you been standing there?

Snap, pop quiz! FTW I wasn't expecting it at all. Thankfully it went well considering I got all the answers, I think. Whether they are correct or not we shall see. With that being last quiz (2E04), I now can officially skip all circuits classes and do not have to worry about it until the next thing which is the final exam, that is not to be studied until the arrival of April 21st. Lol. I'm annoyingly lazy and hard to get serious, even in studies. Sigh.

I was doing my report with my lab partner at Thode just now and oh boy it was like a reunion or something because apparently a whole lot of engineers were working on their assignments/projects this night. I talked to more people just now compared to the total of people I talked to for the whole day. It was fun though. Enjoy it~

Someone quoted this; "Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together". Experience wise, this is 100% valid. You probably know how to verify this theoretically, but since my Emo mood is on, I might as well ramble on what I want to. Hold on! *Putting on my eyeliner, hand socks, hoodie, and turn on Mayday Parade music* Alright kids listen up, screw that glass, go out and buy a new glass. Or better yet, just settle for a crystal. Or don't have any glass or crystal at all. Whatever, get a smoothie or something. But like seriously, I was the fool trying to fix it but hey I've learned well. Clap Clap** Lolz.

Tomorrow we're gonna eat at this Italian restaurant and I am pretty excited about it. Regardless of the hardcoreness I must go through tomorrow (test at 8.30am, lab report due 2.30pm, and lab til 5.30pm), I will show up at the dinner. And although next week is promised to be a very busy one, a picnic on Good Friday is still on and I wanna play dodgeball! Can improvise my arm swinging skill which may be useful in hitting anyone in the future. Haha. Kidding.

I love random photos. :D

Stay Babelicious Gurls. Xoxo~

CherryBee xx

48 : Ferosh much

" If you fall for me, I'm not easy to please.

I might tear you apart, Told you from the start, Baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart (4x)

And I know karma's gonna get me back for being so cold.

Like a big bad wolf, I'm born to be bad and bad to the bone

If you fall for me, I'm only gonna tear you apart,

Told you from the start."

Why the heck do people make this kind of song? Okay honestly when I listened to this song I got so pissed because it reminds me of something And technically I've heard these lines before. The person singing this song is not even near any cute, so please just shut up. I don't have problem listening to this song and enjoy it but when I think about it, I feel like punching something/someone. Guys, girls, everyone please do not follow this horrible behaviour. And oh yeah karma will bite you in the ass, and it's gonna be a painful one. So behave, people will start loving and respecting you for who you are. This is a reminder for myself too.

Oh before I forget, I had one of the most confusing dreams last night. This one particular face of someone kept showing up. I woke up and was like "Shit, I've been thinking too much". Dush dush.. Oh well it makes me happy though. Haha. Anyhow, I have to choose my stream for next term by April 9th! Omg I havent decided. Help Help. Nuclear, Nanotechnology, or Photonics?? No, not interdisciplinary please. I was so sure of going to Nuclear but as I'm learning more and more about laser, waves, lights and all these stuff, I'm more attracted to Nano and Photonics. Hm, waiting for a reply from my mum. She always gives the best advise and choice!

Yesterday was a great day, in term of weather though. Everyone was outside. People were playing rounders, football, american football in front of JHE. Most of the students were riding bicycles, skateboards, and rollerblades. Some were jogging around, and I knew at that time I had to go for a walk. I walked to University Plaza, got myself hulla hoops (finally!) and walked back home. My god it was so refreshing. Me Like!!

Some non related photos, but I was browsing through my folders and found these.

STAY VOGUE!

CherryBee xx

47 : Random

Quote of the day :

"In the regular world, halloween is when children dress up in costumes and beg for candies.

In girl world, halloween is the one night of the year when a girl can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it."

O'RLY??

CherryBee xx

47 : Vicious

Got back my Quantum test II. I wouldn't say it's near any awesome but it wasn't that bad, for me. I studied at 7am to 11am that morning and went for the test at 12pm. So either way, I'm proud of myself. A pat on the back for me. :) Although yeah could have been much better if I were to put in any kind of effort into studying it. Now I really should stop lazying around and study for my next 2 tests.

I was so craving for rasberry/apple pie just now. I wanted to bake it myself but it would have taken me 1.5 hours. So I decided to go for a walk and buy pie on the way back home. Oh my god, it's so worth the craving~ Nyummy. I'm worried of my addiction to desserts, but can always use skimmed milk and exercise frequently.

I still can't get over this henna thingy on my hands. To be honest, I really wanna curse so badly but I keep telling myself it won't do any good. I mean Come On, my hands were fine before. There's no need for any mark to be on it that probably gonna take a freaking long time for the mark to diminish. Arghh I said I didn't want any henna. :(

My class finished early today as I do not have my thermo lab this week. I really wanna go shopping! I was thinking of going out after class but then again, I have lots of work. Hold on, only 2 weeks to go with classes.

Oh and ANTM Cycle 14 is now showing! Omg I'm a BIG fan of ANTM. I watched all of the cycles and I never missed any episode. I know all the winners! I haven't had any favourite one yet in the competition (this cycle) but a few of them I must say have very good modelling skill. I know for sure one thing is that I dislike Angelea. I don't get it how they could bring her in. Putting that aside though, I think this cycle is gonna be pretty interesting compared to the last 2 cycles that were pretty boring. You guys should watch the walk they did in the middle of the street plus had to take their coats off (with style of course!). Omg that was so awesome! Can I be taller and try entering the competition? I promise I cut down on food. Lol. :P

Stay vivalicious everyone. Xoxo.

CherryBee xx

46 : Intention

You're wrong when you do bad things and you're wrong when you do good things.
So let's just be and do what you want because in the end no one gives a damn. Helping others is wrong apparently. My intention was good, but it is seen as a bad thing for making them lazier and more dependent. That's a good point there but I wasn't thinking much at that time. I'm sorry, was just trying to help.

CherryBee xx

45 : Dearest Sarah

Count to 4 backward. "Oh oh I can do it!". What? Of course not that will be from number of infinity to 4. Nice one, I was tricked. I might look arrogant (always get that as the first impression), but actually pretty sensitive. But people who know me well are aware of this though. Oh well, what the heck. Random random. And I can't seem to get through this one friend of mine. I hope everything is alright over there because I have no clue what's happening. Take care alright.

To my dearest beautiful cool couzie, Sarah. Happy 20th Birthday Dear! Have a great one alright! Turning 20 is not as big as turning 21 but that will do. Haha. May all your wishes come true. I MISS you a lot and I seriously can't wait to hangout + go shopping with you before you fly off. Muahhh! xoxo babe

CherryBee xx

44 : 3/4

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CherryBee xx

43 : D.L.S

I was raped by Math. But Thankfully the first Test was good, so hopefully it will still be alright. Quantum Test was better than the first one. My friend did quote "Easy" but I don't think my level is that high to say it is so easy though. Yesterday I stayed up doing my lab report until like 4am at campus and ended up sleeping at Moulton's common room. It was kind of a deja vu moment because I used to come there a lot last year.

St. Patty's Day was sick (in a good way)! I know it's a religious event celebrated by the Irish but everyone nowadays celebrates it as a reason to drink all day long. I was going home at 4.30pm and people on the street were pouring beer onto each other already. I was like "Wait, it's only 4!". But the weather on that day was superb. 16 degrees celcius, man the Irish people do bring luck. Lol. Suddenly on that day everyone was an Irish or have "Irish blood" in them. My friend gave me a shot glass with "St Patty's Day" written on it. Aww appreciate the thought.

Before this I had this conversation with my friends on how Engineering guys are mostly dirty minded. Haha. I'm not saying it's a bad thing or I mind about it, but these past few days the theory is starting to become more and more solid. I had several occasions before where I would encounter such things but I got these all in 1 day. Tsk tsk.

Scene 1 (about to fall asleep)
Me : Im sleepy.
Guy next to me : You're not allowed to be sleepy.
Guy infront of me : He's rude. You should smack him!
Me : I will, especially when he's sleeping. I'm gonna just smack him.
Guy next to me : I should get it. Then we both will enjoy it.

Scene 2 (trying to put in freaking small wires into the breadboard of the logic circuit)
Me : Which one should I put it in?
Guy 1 : Just shove it up in the hole.
Guy 2 : That's what she said. *Wink*
Guy 1 : That's a good one.

Scene 3 (measuring values from oscilloscope)
TA : I'll read the values from the oscilloscope and you change the frequency values to whichever you want.
Me : Alright, I want it bigger.
TA : Yeah, that's what she said. *Smile*
Me : WHat??
TA : WHat??

Scene 4 (our TA gave us lollipops, I was so hungry)
Me : Oh my god this is so good.
Guy with lollipop : Oh yeah this is very good. Emm.. (started laughing)
Me : Eeew, be professional.

Scene 5 (wishing Happy Birthday at msn)
Me : Yeah Im gonna go get my sleep soon. Happy Birthday in advance!
Classmate : Don't let some crazed lesbians lavish you in your sleep. At least video tape it sell it for some money..
Me : You're crazy and random.

Okay I'm gonna stop now because I think you get the picture.

Anyhow, the class of 2009/2010 in ending. Omg how time flies. I'm nearly done with my second year! This is so exciting. Winter is over, spring is here, I feel like everything is so great right now. I can't wait for summer! Lots of things on my to-do list to be fulfilled. I do hope somebody I know will come to Hamilton this summer. It will be awesome. And I'm not gonna be able to watch Gaga's concert since it is in July! Can I get an Urrghh..!

Miss my Mummy and Lukey so much!

CherryBee xx

42 : Fermions

I watched this one movie. Well I'm still watching it, it's a very happy movie with a happy ending to all but along the way they face very hard and challenging obstacles.

This one girl, she was in love with this guy. They had amazing times being together. They went out together, and share most of the moments not only with themselves but also with all of their friends. But then distance separates them. They didn't let it be a reason, everyday they would talk to each other. At least a message to know the other was doing alright. Suddenly he began to act differently for a long time. She trusted him with all her heart, and so the probability of a third person to involve was out of the question. She went to see him after so long not being able to even hold his hands. She was very happy. So did he. But she found out the truth. The ugly truth that she wished she would never have encountered it. She mentioned to him before "I can't accept only one thing about a guy, and that is being a cheater.". She's been fooled. Her heart was crushed and her life was crumbling down. After a month, she stopped crying. Lifting herself up, she started a new life. A better and a merrier one.

The other girl, was in love with a guy who belongs to someone else. She didn't plan this to happen but it did. She said no to her feelings, because it is not fair to the other girl who is waiting for the guy to come back home. Being a normal typical guy, he confessed his feelings to her. She didn't response, "This is wrong", she thought to herself. But deep inside of her, her heart smiles, but not for long. He confronted her again, saying that this could not continue. No matter how much he loves her, how much he cares for her, he will always choose the girl who is waiting with hope for him to return. She understood, she smiled, she laughed. "I wish for your happiness with her". In her room, she cried badly. Hating him for stealing her heart and throwing it away. No more wake up calls from him, no more seeing him, no more "me & you". But she's strong, she knows she's better than this. She said to herself "I will cry tonight. I will scream tonight. I will look at your pictures tonight. I will read your messages tonight. But tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow I won't do what I'm doing tonight. I will forget you and become a happy person just like before, knowing the right person is waiting for me somewhere. Only time will bring him to me". And that's what she did.

Another person was with this guy for such a long time. They have been together for nearly 2 years. They were very happy doing everything together. And I mean every single thing. From doing homework to buying shoes, from eating lunch to going out for a movie. The only thing that was bothering her was his temper. Whenever he's angry, he would forget everything about them and acted according to his feelings. She didn't mind, knowing that their love was stronger than ever and this small thing would not be the reason to end their love. But one day he was crossing the line. Saying "We are not meant for each other" broke her heart. She cried and cried. She said "I'm not taking this anymore" and began ignoring him. At one point, he wanted her back but she said no. She was sure with her answer. However the world has a funny way to turn things around at you. 1, 2, 3, 4 months passed and now she's missing him more than ever. She keeps reminiscing their memories and tries to win him back. He's not showing interest, but he's not turning his back. She knows it's not him to be blamed for, she was stupid to let him go. But she knows everything happens for a reason, and that there must be a reason for this to happen the way it did. She's not giving up, but she's not chasing. "If you're meant for me, then we will be together. I don't need to rush or force things to happen". Putting everything aside, she focuses on her future and enjoy each moment with everyone around.

Now isn't that an amazing movie. Everyone managed to face the challenges in life and now happiness is chasing them. It's not the end of it yet, but so far they all look happy. Don't assume these are all about me, like I said, it's a movie. :)

CherryBee xx

41 : M.a.B

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I bet she gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask the boy to drive, and he'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
On him to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

-If you know this song, you should listen to it because it is a beautiful song. An old song but never gets old. No I'm not miserable or whatever, it's just a song. A song will stay as a song. A dream will stay as a dream. A word will only stay as a word. Now let's study math :)

CherryBee xx

Ch-ch-ch-Check It Out.

COOL SONG.




CherryBee xx

40 : Unlocalized

Warning: Pictures above have nothing to do with what I'm gonna say next.

I always have a list of celebrity icons. The celebrities whom I adore very much and wanting be like them. Britney will always be number 1 in the list of course. Also on the list are Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, Christina Aquilera, and Hilary Duff. But recently I added another celebrity and can't get enough of her! Introducing to the J'adore list is Ke$ha! I like her style and her music a lot! Stop ta-ta-talking that blaa blaa blaa...

Anyhow,the phrase "it's wrong but it feels so damn right" (okay I added the "damn" myself) is very common. I have been in that situation, and I'm sure many people have been through that state. But like, I dont know, it's just complicated. Oh well. Just sharing.

Now: Lab Report. Lab report.

Mishing my family and friends THIS much. xoxo

CherryBee xx

Aside

Shisha or movie. ctrl + alt + delete. Thank you.


CherryBee xx

39 : I Like.

Tahlil was a success. Thanks everyone, I love you. May God Bless you all. :)

Food was a success too, of course. Nasi lemak, bread pudding and cupcakes! :9

Eng phys + 1 elec night out was great. Makes me so proud to be an engineering student. ERTW everyone~

He was making coffee. I like it.


p/s: When I was younger sometimes people teased me by calling me ribeena or sabrina the teenage witch. But they were all joking and I would be like "Awesome". But sometimes the teasing words come out from the SUBs. I couldnt care less because they're not up to my standard but just saying. What is SUBs? Well it's not something nice and try to figure it out. :D

Goodnight Hamiltonians. Make sure the derivation is the same so that energy is surely conserved or else we'd be in big trouble. xx

CherryBee xx

38 : Hey You.

Hey you. Yeah you.
I like you. Do you like me too?
Can I try to win you back? You said that you care about me although I haven't been showing the best attitude.
I've been wearing it. Everytime, everywhere I go. I remember you gave it to me.
Hey you. I really like you.
I do. :)
*And I called you Jacob first okay! Grr..*

p/s : my bread pudding is a success. yay. vanilla+chocolate cupcakes, apple pie, meat pie, lasagna, and cakes. my hobby invloves money. but baking is fun!

CherryBee xx

37 : Starry, Starry Night

Yesterday night I needed to go for a walk. It's 8pm but I didn't care of the fact that it's night time already, I needed a time on my own to just be alone. I was strolling down the Rifle Range street and a lot of things came to my mind. Everything that has happened these few years, the memories are coming back one by one. The pain and the happiness I've went through. I wish i could turn back time. If only I could.. Then I would safe you. And if I couldn't safe you, I would have spent the entire time with you. I would tell you how much you mean so much not only to me but to us. I would not let you leave us.

If I could turn back time, I would never let this one person go. The first in my life. And right now it feels like you're the last one too. Because I was stupid and only now I realized how much I care for you. I watched it slipped away, I tried not to let it go but I don't know what happened. But I won't do the same thing again. Never. Because IWYB. I hope one day we can be like before. But a dream stays a dream.

Anyhow, as I was walking I thought to myself "So this is what Dexter was talking about". Walking alone at night sounds crazy but when you inhale that refreshing breeze, you suddenly feel so calm. You feel like you're in a different world, a world of peace and a place for your sanctuary. It has definitely cleared my thoughts and now I know that I need to move forward for what's ahead of me. Start with a baby step. Whatever the challenges may seem, everyone will endure it with great success if you have faith and hope. Be it your studies, your life, or anything at all. Challenges promise you one thing, that you'll become a better person and happiness will follow afterwards.

I've been thinking too much not only about the past but of the future. But someone gave this line in surah Al Noor (The light); what a coincidence of the name with mine; "Vile women are for vile men, and vile men for vile women. Good women are for good men, and good men for good women.."

I don't think I'm a vile person, but maybe I'm not all good. But I think I need a step back from all this world of madness and return to the path where I was at. For a start, Yasin always for Daddy and have happy thoughts constantly. With the help of the Almighty, I know I'm not alone and can always turn to Him for help. Goodnight everyone, I made bread pudding but it's late so gonna eat it for breakfast. Sleep tight. xx

CherryBee xx

36 : The 4th

4 years.
Since I last saw your face.

4 years.

Since I last kissed your hands.

4 years.

Since I last called you "Abah" infront of you.

4 years.

Since you last called my name.

4 years.

Since I last heard your voice.

4 years.

Since I last cried heavily non-stop for 1 straight week.

4 years.

Since you left us.

4 years it has been,

But you're still on my mind.

I remember everything that happened at this moment 4 year ago.

I miss your presence.

I miss going out for a family weekend.

I miss when you came home from work and Lukey would run out to hug you.

I miss it when you laughed because of something really funny and sometimes mum didn't even get the joke.

I miss it when you used to drive me to school everyday.

I miss it when you would bring home cakes for our birthdays.

I miss everything about you.

Because you were and are the greatest Dad in the whole world.

You cared for us very much. How I wish I could tell you how much Mum, Lukey, Me and Kakak miss you.

If only you knew what had happened since you left us and got me thinking everytime that it would be better if you're still around.

But I know that's not possible. I have promised you to take care of the family and to make everyone proud. You taught me to always keep our promises and I will try my best to keep it.

I'm sorry I haven't been the greatest daughter to you. I have made mistakes in life. Sometimes people take advantage of me, of our family, and I was stupid to let people used me, let people bring me down. But it is said that, the greater you fall the greater you will rise. I've fallen hard but it makes me stronger Dad. Don't worry, I won't let anyone do any wrong anymore to our family, to me. Mak always misses you, all the time. We love you very much and I hope that you're happy right now because there's nothing I want now but to know that you're happy. I always pray for you. I Love you.

CherryBee xx